Take up any mantra to chant as ajapa japa. Develop feeling connection to any God, any guru, is okay. Unclutching from all the mortal, feeling connection strongly with immortal. This is the essence of my teachings.
Principles of life are neither capitalistic nor communistic. The principles of life says, man who takes the responsibility has the right to enjoy.
You are asking - when mind knows maya is bad, why is it not coming out? Whenever it knows maya is bad, it does come out!
When you are pushing your limits, you realize many of your hidden capacities, extraordinary experiences and energies.
Your Guru who loves you, do not want you to be stuck as a Guru Widow or Guru widower. Discipleship is for you to grow.
If you see God with tremendous love, He will be there responding to you. If you see Him with tremendous insecurity, He will be there reflecting that.
The fabric out of which your identity is made is the very utterance of ‘I’. The number of times you utter I, I, I - that becomes the thread.